Or Its Endless Torture For Life
Or Its Endless Torture For Life
I don’t know why I got put on this lifelong exotic wireless torture military and medical school torture dropout program I worked ten years in school tortured repeating my classes four times (due to wirelessly induced fatigue and dizziness forcing me to drop out repeatedly) to get into as I used my $45,000 car accident money where I broke my leg (bones popped out the skin) to pay all my ex girlfriend’s and daughter’s bills for example....If the people so disparagingly describing critical race theory as a “threat to our country” were tortured their whole life, mind controlled out of school and any success their whole life, they probably could appreciate what it’s like being born into a society where you are considered less than human like African Americans were, being made into a government science project, a torture object, etc. and denied the opportunity of college at more than ten schools, denied into the military 19 times for spurious reasons while being tortured wirelessly I desperately have sought to escape, denied the right to a good unadulterated testosterone prescription for five years with no alternative, denied to the right to exercise, or even the right to cook a meal once in 5 years. I know what it’s like to be made to feel less than human most of my life, so I want to applaud General Milley for standing up to people that arbitrarily think that criticizing the defense, respect, and acknowledgment of an entire people’s past enslavement will somehow make us worse off. Mark, if you’re out there, please let me in the military through court. I don’t know if I can stare at these walls at my grandmother’s house a seventh year with this much PTSD, psychological torment, and torture. I tried suing the DOD twice for teleporting my testosterone, hardcore wireless torturing me over 15 years , and denying me into the military 19 times with mostly reasons none other than “big army” denied you or, you need a waiver for having your knees electrocuted while duck walking but we suddenly want to pretend we don’t give waivers for that. Of course they just dropped these lawsuits, and I couldn’t handle more wireless torture which has affected me 24/7 for over 15 years so I did something to grab their attention and be able to defend myself in court if they weren’t going to let me defend myself in my house, let me work, let me study, take them to court, let me watch television, let me read, let me cook my meals, let me have a relationship or hang out with friends, let me have a car, let me do anything other than be put on a mental roller coater all day everyday while desperately doing nothing but trying to plead my case on Facebook when it wasn’t banned for no reason or deleted, and listening to music to constantly try to forget that someone could do this to someone else this long or at all. I have joined all the targeted individual Facebook groups and a lot of phone call groups and I’ve never seen anyone endure half as much torture for as long or anything half as intense let alone for over 15 years of something so intense I’m told it was supervised the whole time. I spent 10 years trying to become a medical doctor, repeating my pre med classes four times due to unrelenting fatigue and dizziness, just to be tortured out of two medical schools four times in a row. My identity is destroyed and I have nothing left to cling to psychologically or physically, and practically no one who believes me. I’m sure I have more suicide attempts than anyone on the planet, even winding up on a ventilator in a coma from trying and waking up in horror I was still alive and that this might never end. The torture has been that unbearable, the destruction and denial of my happiness for that long that tormenting in itself. I am currently trying to complete the filing of a patent over blocking xenoestrogens, raising free testosterone, and increasing fertility and health by blocking a protein in the body to prove to someone I have potential and shouldn’t be given up on. If defending your life is illegal now without violence, I hope you enjoy the resulting soulless dictatorship where no one is valued beyond their family’s wealth. If I’m denied justice, denied in the military to be tortured forever, denied my dream of becoming a doctor or a military physicist, I can’t live to see my hopes and dreams extinguished for if I’m lucky a 20$ an hour job numbing my mind. I’d really love to lead in the military or incorporate the philosophy of Ayn Rand into coursework in military schools. Without an objective mathematically correct philosophy to defend ourselves with and analysis of philosophy that led to the creation of for example Nazi Germany we are all naked and prone to foreign influence. The smarter someone is the more bad philosophy and premises will destroy their lives and whoever they are in charge of. I’ve been dragged through court with no blood pressure for a year already by my ex girlfriend’s Muslim father from Iraq who was given fake shoulder pain he got an MRI for they didn’t cover when he tackled me for no reason after telling the cops he would shoot me for no reason. I’ve been tortured for years while I tried to pursue lawsuits versus the DOD for not letting me in, torturing me, and teleporting my testosterone. Please don’t drag me through a jury trial and just try to let me in the military when my attorney asks or I do to ask the military to take me on the 21 of July, 2021 in the St. Charles courthouse. I got “COVID” during my last court date and missed it. I paid all of his daughter’s (my-ex girlfriends) bills the entire year we were together with the money I got from having my leg open fractured and broke in half when a woman pulled out in front of me for no reason and treated her well. Of course when I sued the DOD twice I was dragged through court for many months both times just to have them dismiss my case after elevating it to federal court and break into my mail when I tried to contest the dismissal so they told me all they got was an empty envelope. No one has fought harder for their life. No one hs been tortured harder or longer with more exotic and complex torture weapons than me - blood pressure oscillators while hypothermic while being electrocuted while being made tired while having seeing nothing but sex videos over my eyes of my ex girlfriend they shot as a cop (she survived), while having my veins twisted, while having my pituitary and brain nonstop electrocuted, while people remotely made me feel like I was getting hit in the head, while simulating strokes, while depriving me of oxygen and choking me so I’d beg for oxygen and a blood pressure all day to an oscillator, while electrocuting my body so much my legs would jump all day, while sleep depriving me and waking up to being electrocuted, while being made hypothermic, and more. Ive never seen anything like this before let alone some of this done for 15 years with extreme depression and dizziness my whole life before that. I’ve applied to multiple government agencies in addition to the military. I’ve researched all kinds of exotic genetic deficiencies I thought I had, I’ve spent $40,000 on supplements over ten years or more on coenzymes, vitamins, prescriptions, minerals, anything I thought that I might be deficient in. I’ve studied and learned traditional Chinese Medicine trying to see an angle around this other than that the government could be that evil to have been wirelessly doing it 15 years and in other forms my entire life. I couldn’t accept that the world was that cold of a place. My first car’s license plate says something like LUW086. My next license plate was WG8X1F. If you are in the know you will see. That first license plate is about the only thing that has kept me thinking I have any hope. When I was younger like 10 I’d often miss 2/3rds a school year due to depression. I’ve been afflicted my whole life. I tried filing congressional inquiries to why I was not being let into the military like one nice recruiter suggested. No one called me back, I guess my calls were deleted. I saw that bill Binney, the ex director of the nsa is around 70, a double amputee, and still being wirelessly tormented. Thats also why I smashed some windshields. I knew unless I identified a perpetrator of this and had a documented confrontation with them since they dismissed every other lawsuit against them that I could potentially spend the rest of my life in a bed being tortured unable to even read a book or barely watch tv.
I also want to address like General Milley did the anti concept of calling the military “woke”. Woke as opposed to asleep? People are blindly using these words without even thinking what they mean, disregarding the meaning of language. I will close with an Ayn Rand quote.
-Clayton Silva, St. Charles, Missouri
"Pride is the recognition of the fact that you are your own highest value and, like all of man’s values, it has to be earned—that of any achievements open to you, the one that makes all others possible is the creation of your own character—that your character, your actions, your desires, your emotions are the products of the premises held by your mind—that as man must produce the physical values he needs to sustain his life, so he must acquire the values of character that make his life worth sustaining—that as man is a being of self-made wealth, so he is a being of self-made soul—that to live requires a sense of self-value, but man, who has no automatic values, has no automatic sense of self-esteem and must earn it by shaping his soul in the image of his moral ideal, in the image of Man, the rational being he is born able to create, but must create by choice—that the first precondition of self-esteem is that radiant selfishness of soul which desires the best in all things, in values of matter and spirit, a soul that seeks above all else to achieve its own moral perfection, valuing nothing higher than itself—and that the proof of an achieved self-esteem is your soul’s shudder of contempt and rebellion against the role of a sacrificial animal, against the vile impertinence of any creed that proposes to immolate the irreplaceable value which is your consciousness and the incomparable glory which is your existence to the blind evasions and the stagnant decay of others."
"It takes two to make a very great career: The man who is great, and the man—almost rarer—who is great enough to see greatness and say so."
"Ask anything of men. Ask them to achieve wealth, fame, love, brutality, murder, self-sacrifice. But don't ask them to achieve self-respect. They will hate your soul."
I have given up using all electronics but the television because I get made to cough all day if. I do or get tortured to post on Facebook all day if I have a phone or computer on so I can't even use those. This is no life. Please let me in the military through court or my life is over. I had a dream to go to medical school for ten years and they took that from me too, torturing me out of medical school three semesters in a row. It all seems so cold after fifteen yers and to a lesser extent a lifetime of this. I'm only 31. I know no one has been tortured harder longer or more exotically than I have.
One of my heroes, Martin Luther King, whose name I have tattooed on me said "An injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere." If I can't get any justice, if the entire system and every agency endlessly conspires against me, it is a loss for America, a sign that if I can't get justice or have any hope that no one can. I also have an Asian and Black Lives Matter tattoo on my arms for a total of 22 tattoos I got while being tortured, 24/7 for years/decades to the point of me even getting tortured while getting multiple tattoos with electricity and other things. I knew they'd seek to discredit me, to burn my torture records, to say I'm not the worst torture victim there has been especially at 31 years old. So I said if no one wants to acknowledge I'm being violently tortured and suicided all days for years, decades, I am going to make people know this is true by sleeving my arms and chest in tattoos so everyone can see for themselves. I even have a giant tattoo on me that says HELP I was getting tortured for. I was paralyzed in a bed multiple times for months tortured and was so desperate to be able to walk which I was barely able to do that I had Donald Trump's name tattooed on me twice which I covered up twice due to it being a blank check to carry on more torture. But it did get me to walk. What did that get me? Tortured out of medical school while his administration pretended to be letting me free letting me do school for the last 4 weeks of his administration where I was abruptly tortured out of medical school the second he left office. I've tried everything job applications and letters to the UN, multiple lawsuits against the DOD that all get dropped, job applications to multiple government agencies they conspired to block off my internet for years I never got calls back for, `19 military applications all denied for no reason with. no written proof ever given, multiple websites they tortured me to take down, this new windshield smashing court case I did because I couldn't stand to be made tired and dizzy anxious and depressed and forced to pace all hours of the day like a zombie due to my extreme anxiety. I have moved to California three times trying tescae torture getting electrocuted and made on the verge of passing out like for years or decades while driving so much I drove out there most of the way reclined in my seat chugging energy drinks and rubbing hydrocortisone cream on my arms. I was told to fly to Texas to aptly to the military there where they received a phone call from someone telling them not to let mw into the recruiting office where they basically insulted me and didn't even let me in. I drove to Texas doing the same thing as above. There's way more details but I want this website to have a chance to not be redirected and blocked. Thank you to the heroes that don't hate the human spirit that might let this desperate plea remain on the internet.